Lets go...

Woke up this morning, thinking that I was back home. :(

Lets go Uptown...lets eat Ais kacang there...

Lets go Jelutong...just lepak la...

Lets go 1U, just walk walk la...

Lets go Low Yat...computer stuff cheap...

Lets go Summit, easy to get movie tickets...

Lets go Midvalley...watch movie?

Lets go RACK, go play pool k??

Lets go Baskin Robins...pink colour...mmmmm...

Lets go Ikea, go eat hotdog...

Lets go Sungai Wang, go buy clothes...

Lets go Ikano, got nothing there, but just go la...

Lets go Kiara Park, go walk walk...

Lets go Pasar Malam...got nice things to eat...

Lets go Time Square, go buy 'Poring'...

Lets go Pyramid, watch movie k...

Lets go Mc Dees...got Ayam Goreng McD...

Lets go...go home... :(

Everything is upsidedown...like my life...

Os epoh i .Wonk tnod i...shtnom erom eerht tsal ot hguone gnorts eb i lliw... ffo enog tsuj sah erif ym... won tub, ecnatsid gnol a evah dna tiaw ot gnilliw os si that eno eht, eno citsimitpo eht neeb syawla ev'i. Tnemtimmoc no eussi eht. Eussi emas eht no neeb syawla evah (s)melborp ruo, tey... evah dluow ew kniht I, krow pihsnoitaler siht ekam ot noitanimreted sih rof tnsaw ti fi dna, pu gnivig fo egrev eht no tsomla neeb ev'i. hguorht enog ev'ew smelborp retfa smelborp!!! Pu evig ot ydaer tsuj m'i, niaga sneppah gnihtyna fi, tub. Mih evol llits i. Eurt dna raelc era sgnileef ym wonk i. Erehwemos, wohemos, mih gnisool m'i ekil leef i.

Shtnom erom eerht thuj, shtnom erom eerht. Tantsid os gnimoceb s'eh. Tol a mih gnissim m'i.

FURIOUS with my manager!

I'm gonna complain...so its gonna be kinda boring.

My manager...is c 2 pid and i dont like her at all. I went to work as usual today, and she just picked on everything i did!

After 4 months of her reading my orders, she complained today that I didnt write my orders properly. And I was like....!@#$%*# If you cant understand what I write, its either you're illiterate, blind, or plain STUPID! The whole shop sells pasties...and so if its a "Chicken Pasty", everybody will write "Chicken" when taking an order. EVERYBODY shortens it! But today, she so cleverly said..."YOu have to write in full!" Alright...Lynn says sorry and carries on serving.
15 minutes after that, I get called again. Why?? Ohh...coz I didnt write the full order. WHAT THE HECK!!!! You are BLIND! I wrote "Teacake + Tea and apparently, she just saw Teacake! And she's telling me off...because she didnt see?
I argued this time...and in the end she said "Dont do it again" WHAT THE @$#%! Like it was MY fault for her being BLIND!
SOon after, she lectures Emma and I for not taking intiative to fill up the drinks fridge. Again I was furious.... Hello?!! I'm the one always running down to the basement, carrying HEAVY crates of drinks and bringing them up. I am the one bending down to fill up the fridge!!!
I think she must have heard me say..."I always do it" under my breath, and so she said...yea, but this week...I'm doing it.
WHATEVER!!!!
If I get a better job, I'm leaving!!!

Am I kiasu?

Assignment due end of this week. Some spreadsheet calculation thing on business stats. I've got all the answers except one question, and that question carries the most marks. *sigh*

None of my friends seem to know how to do it, and even if they say they do, their explanation is totally rubbish, and is outrightly WRONG. And I'm getting so stressed up. Some friend said "It's just 8 marks out of 100". But...I cant stand not getting that 8 marks!

Am I kiasu or what...!! Grrrr....

I'm smiley crazy!

Smiley's make me laugh.

Smiley's make me happy!

Smiley's make me crazy!

I just love smiley's!

Tired of life

2.40am and I'm blogging. There are lectures tomorrow, reading week is officially over. So...what am I doing at this hour??
Finishing a dumb assignment due tomorrow. Thanks to my 'wonderful' group members that so graciously sent me their work only this afternoon for me to go through and compile. And thanks to some group members who didnt reference their work, and worse still write totally nonsense for me to edit. If I'm not gonna do it, no one will, and if no one will, I'll get a bad mark. Thats why I hate group projects in Coventry Uni.

My weekends always seem to be dull. Terrible tummy ache this morning didnt start my day off right. And things happened in the evening(again). Its funny how things like that happen just before evening service, leaving me to feel totally down at service hence tears come easily. And I do not like crying while worship or prayer. I am uneasy that people around think I am such a troubled girl.

The thing that made my day was only a great dinner at Dusit Thai. Wonderful Thai food with great fellowship. And...thats the only highlight for the day.

Shall I feel sorry for myself?? No, I should just sleep... But I do have something to blog about what I felt at service today. Maybe my next blog...

Nitez.

Ouch...

Woke up this morning with a terrible stomach ache. No idea why...but even after going to the toilet and all...the stomach ache didnt become better.It just utterly terrible and I just couldnt do anything. I didnt know what medication to take...and so I just popped a couple of gastric pills in my mouth out of desperation. And I was just moaning..."God, take away the stomach ache.." After a while...I fell asleep in pain, and of course when you sleep, you dont feel anything. Woke up again...and the pain was kinda gone...praise God!

Was is worse than child brith?? I dont know... But the pain was just unbearable.

Warwick Malaysia Night...worth it?

I'm feeling quite terrible now to be honest.

Malaysia Night...something I quite looked forward to. Paid 8.50 for the ticket...which was quite a big deal to me. Malaysia...I miss home so much. I'm deprived of my own culture. So yea, why not attend some Malaysian function.

Performance wise...it was alright, except for the play. Dances, singing and Dikir Barat was great.

Company wise...it was not great. Given another chance, I wouldnt have gone. I knew practically NOBODY and was totally lost in the hundreds of people crowd. After the show, everybody was having so much fun taking photographs and all...and I was just lost.

Being in Cov Uni makes me feel really left out. With the less than 0.1% population of Malaysians in Cov uni, its impossible to form a Malaysian Student Association. And so I have to go to Wariwick...but ppl at Warwick has their own clique and so what is the point of me going???

Get to know them? It intimidates me that I'm in Cov uni. I feel belittled, I feel small. I feel stupid being a Cov Uni student. No matter how many times I manage to comfort myself that choosing Cov Uni was the right decision, I still regret and feel bitter about being put in Cov Uni. Really, it wasnt much decision that I could have made...there wasnt much choice. I'm not stupid! I deserve a better uni than freaking Coventry University!!

Everytime people ask me what uni I'm in, I'm so ashamed to say Coventry. Worse if I'm talking to someone from Imperial, LSE or even Warwick. I want to tell people, but whats the point? It'll look like I'm a boast. But right now, I just want to say it...
I GOT ACCEPTED BY WARWICK!!! I just didnt have the funds. I'm not stupid...

My heart is crying...I'm crying...

Transfer next year?? I dont think I can, and where am I gonna get the funds even if i do?

A day of tiredness, but satisfying

Had to go to work. Was a busy day...no time to rest, but I was quite 'semangat'(which means motivated to ppl who dont know malay). Finished at 5, on time and rushed off to Joe Richards to buy vege...since my bro's fren was coming. Went home and started preparing dinner...cooked a lot, quite a feast I should say.
Dinner went well, and it was nice to have someone over...had good conversations and fellowship.

Tomorrow, I think i will call in sick at work, coz I don't feel like going. I'd rather hang out with my bro and De Ming. Thinking of where to go, Warwick Castle?? Leamington?? Stratford??

And then Malaysia Night at night...Hope it'll be a happy day!! :D

He talked to me!

Just about to sleep...and an sms came through.
"Oooh...Ee Yan's up so early!!"
But...nooo, its not Ee Yan! It was some person I havent talked to in ages.
Then, we talked on MSN for like 5 mins, before he had to go to work. Hahaha...

If I was in form 2, I'd be soooooooo happy coz he talked to me. I would be jumping for joy. But...those days have gone by, and now I just think about those days and laugh at myself for being so immature. :P

I'm just still surprised that he texted me...

Mmmm...food!

Yeap, a shopping day at Birmingham gave me no time for meals. I have just finished my one and only proper meal for today...
And what was my proper meal??? Instant noodles...MmmmmMmMMmMmmm!
Why so charm ar? Hahahha...

Nothing better to do...

Tired from Birmingham shopping. I over spent... Feeling broke and down...
And guess what, I've got nothing better to do...
And if YOU have nothing better to do too, go fill you time up answering some dumb quiz about me.
I made a Quiz for you! Take my Quiz! and then Check out the Scoreboard!
And...dont cheat!

Grey days are not over

I thought I had a stressful week last week, and thats why I was down. But this week isnt much better. Even with the internet working again, I'm not much happier. Its a weird feeling of not wanting to do anything at all. I dont feel like going out, neither do i feel like doing anything at home. :( It's called sien sien days...as WL calls it. I cant think of a reason why I'm feeling like that.

I'm cold, both physically and emotionally

Woke up this morning with the intention to go to Birmingham just to shop around since I'm on study break. Left my house early...and decided to make a phone call before I leave to Birmingham. The phone call lasted 45 mins...so, i decided not to go.

It was such a cold day today, and the wind was terrible. Spent 45 mins standing at the payphone talking...while the wind blew and my hands were terribly icy cold. Worse, it wasnt a good conversation and until now, I'm still down by it.

Something's missing in me, something's lost. Nobody seems to understand what I'm feeling, and sometimes, trying to explain to someone dosent help either, coz it just leads to misunderstandings. Maybe I dont understand myself to explain...

I'm pretty fed up of Coventry life. Work and uni isnt something to look forward to at all. And maybe the only thing I look forward to everyday when I wake up is going home to Malaysia. But...its another 4 months, so I cant really be too excited about it. And...what if I get dissapointed when things dont go how i want it to go when i go home...?

I'm just so negative right now...

Feelings...I have none

My thoughts are blank...I feel like I'm dead. I don't know what my feelings are, I have no emotions, I dont feel like doing anything, more like I dont know what to do.

Coming back to an empty room and having nothing to do...I just feel like going out somewhere or talking to someone or doing something. But there's nothing to do(assignments dont count), and there's nobody to talk to, and there's no where to go. I feel like saying, "Come ma, lets go Parkson." Or maybe just calling Paul up to crap, or calling Ee Yan to ask him to come over or go mamak. How about watching tv with papa...that would be fun too!! I wish...

I'm stoning here, thinking of what to do...Reading week is next week...means that I'll be off. And internet should be back by next week. BUT, I think Ee Yan's orientation is next week...which means I wont get to properly talk to him...till week after next.

I'm feeling blank...and empty!

Getting work done

No internet connection at home. Something went wrong with the modem, short circuited I suppose. Waiting for Ronan(the guy in the other flat) to get a new one...so I dont have internet now. Quite frustrating...as I am an online freak. Spend a lot of my time on the net doing a lot of nonsence.

BUT the good thing is...I'm getting all my work done! Hahaha...with no internet at home, I have practically nothing to do in my room. Serious! No tv, no radio, NOTHING! I can't download new series of Iron Chef, or Amazing Race...I cant play online games, I can't chat online...I cant read blogs. So the only thing I can do is to do my work!

Reading week next week, but its not really a holiday. Got lotsa assignments on my hand...which isnt difficult really. I just have to stop procrasinating and get myself to do work!

An assignment due today, and 3 more due after next week. Its good that my internet is down at the moment!! HA! ^_^

CNY Day 2005

My plans were to go to Birmingham. Since there is a China Town there, and lotsa shopping, I thought I would treat myself to a nice day at Birmingham. Unfortunately, law assignment is due tomorrow, and I've got an econs test tomorrow...so how am I suppose to go without feeling guilty!? Change of plans...I told myself I would just shop around in Coventry since Alders have some really good bargains.

Haha...so much for all the planning. Only came back about 3.30am from Jen's house...so I just decided to sleep as much as I could. Woke up at...2.30 pm today. HAHAHA! So much for CNY day, I just slept through it. I didnt even get out of my room.
Its 5.27pm now, and I'm just finishing up my law assignment due tomorrow. More studying tonight for econs test. What happen to the CNY plan??!! I guess a great night last night is good enough.

AND, CNY lasts for 15 days...so I still have 15 days to have fun!!

Chinese New Year eve 2005

No typical family reunion dinner. No grandma's cooking. No cousins around to play with. No yee sang to 'lou'. But I was very very blessed to have my cell group to celebrate CNY eve with me this year.

Pot luck dinner was great. Fried rice, potato pork and onion omelette by Agnes. Spring onion ginger beef and mixed vege by me. Home-made pancakes by Jen. Drinks provided by Sarah. Lychee, Longan and Rambutan syrup provided by Josh and 'baby' Adeline. Wonderfully marinated roast chicken with sweet sour sauce to go with it, and mouth watering fish sambal...simply irresistable, by Josh. Pancakes were for desert...and we had our turns in trying to fry our own.

Had a couple of rounds of 'Tai Tee' before realizing everybody else was bored. So played 'murderer' and 'mafia'. It was so fun...how we argued, and reasoned out who the mafia was. Making wrong decisions and killing poor civilians. Was real great fun! One thing...Peter, who normally is really quiet participated well, and really did a good job trying to convince us that he wasnt the killer. Look how we debated!!


"Who is it???"


"Listen to me! JOSH is the mafia!!"


"I'm confident! I vote for..."

A great day to welcome Chinese New Year. Still so much fun...though I'm hundreds of miles away from home. Who says that a party is no fun without beer and alcohol!! Good fellowship is all you need! Thank you GOD!!


Wonderful food


'Late late' chicken


Yum yum pancakes and ice-cream


Top L-R: Agnes and Sarah
Bottom L-R: Ingrid, ME, Jen


Ingrid...punished. Lemon juice and pancake...

Chinese New Year eve is tomorrow. Whats different this year?? a lot... First time away from home during this festive season. Chinese New Year has always been something that i really really look forward to every year... but this year, there isnt much CNY spirit.

There were a few things that i used to do every CNY without fail. Weeks before CNY, i would be baking cookies. Choco chip, conflakes, peanut, butter cookies were usually on the list. Then making pie-tee cups (which is also known as Singapore pie) for CNY day would be on the list too. Loadsa work... but its so fun!

Food... mmmm... Every year, my grandma would buy a huge packet of kuachi (melon seed) for me because i just love those. I know its a useless, time consuming, good for nothing seed, but its just a habit that i love to eat it. Kuih Bangkit, kuih kapit, pineapple tarts, kuih bakul(tee kueh) and more will be seen around the house. These little sweets and lovely tit-bits are just some kind of tradition i guess.

The menu for the reunion dinner on New Years eve would consist of kiamchai duck soup (salted vegetable duck soup), big prawns in curry, gulai cina (fish in chinese stlyed curry), mixed vege and my absolute favourite... Steam egg crabs!!!. Standard family food as i call it... its always there during CNY.
CNY day... Mee Siam!! Asam Laksa!! And of course pie-tee!! Irrisistable food... i would eat and eat from 11 in the morning(even before any guest comes) until 4 in the evening(when my grandma gets ready to keep everything). Ohhh... and the lovely pulut hitam (black glutinous rice)'soup' with coconut milk. It just makes the CNY meal so complete.

Loadsa angpows too!! Just smile at adults that come visiting, wish them, and get an angpow!!
Bumming around with cousins, playing cards, walking out to buy -cream, watching tv... its just fun!

CNY dinner will be steam boat back at my house. With the famous Aunty Mitch homemade Tau Fu Fah as desert to finish off Chinese New Year!

I so wish i could be home....

Photo's from last year...


Grandma and i


Grandpa and i


A game of cards with cousinssss


Family photo on CNY day

Spoiled

Can you imagine, I didnt have to do anything, except keep my room tidy, which I didnt also...hahaha! I didnt have to make my bed, I didnt have to sweep/mop the floor, wash my clothes, iron, cook, wash...nothing! Absolutely nothing... I really see how lucky i was now that I'm doing everything by myself, and even doing more washing at work.

My poor hands have become coarse...and even by putting cream on it every night, its still not as smooth as before...boo hoo hoo...

Another thing for me to look forward to going back! I dont have to do anything!! YEA! Just call out 'SU!!!'(thats my maids name) and she'll come running. Btw, she's only 16 years...treat her like a sister! :)

And I remember saying I like to do house work...hmmmm....

I do admit...I'm spoiled. :P

Working = YUCKS!

A very bad day at work today. The first time I ever dreaded so much about working. I was tired to begin with, since I could not sleep the night before and therefore I was not physically rested enough to do a Saturday's rush on waitressing, washing and running.

5 pounds an hour...wow!! Thinking about it now, its not so wow. My job:
1) Waitressing: Includes taking orders from customers, getting their food and drinks, and clearing tables after them.
2) Cleaning: Includes cleaning the dishes, sweeping and moping th shop, cleaning the ovens, cleaning the baking mats(which i hate most) and hoovering the carpet in the basement.(for those of you who dont know what hoover is, its actually vacuming)
3) Baking: Includes putting pasties into the oven, getting them out when they're ready, and glazing them.
4) Gettin stock: Includes running up and down to the basement to get pasties from the freezer (freezer is a walk in freezer at -18 degrees celcius, and all I have is just a normal coat to put on. Sometimes, getting stock can take up to half an hour), getting bottles of drinks up from the basement. Even though there is a dumb-waiter, its a chore to use it, and I still have to carry heavy stuff around!

So, I'm not just a waitress huh...multi-tasking job. Thanks to my bosses who cant afford more staff. Oh...and my 6 hour shift only allows a 15 min break for lunch. Sometimes, not even lunch time because thats when the shop is most busy. So if I dont have time to eat my breakfast...drink some coffee to lose my appetite!

With all these complaining, why am I still there!! Get a new job laaa!!
Work is just 15 mins away from where I live, and I really cant be bothered to look for a job now, only 3-4 more months of working, and I'll be going home for summer. Whats the point of changing jobs now!?

Then...stop working laa!!
No work = no money.

Money is not everything laaaa!!!
Yea, but no money = no shopping = no fun. Then what am i suppose to do with my time?? No need to go out with friends?? How can I buy luxury items???

Okay, just to clarify somethings, I'm not super poor that I have to work...AND my parents, are not so stingy that they dont give me money. In fact, they always ask me whether I have enough. BUT i dont feel nice spending their money on stuff for me, I feel bad. So...the only reason to have fun and not feel bad...is to work!!

Bottom line is...I still want to work. And yes, now its because of the money.

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