I'm cold, both physically and emotionally

Woke up this morning with the intention to go to Birmingham just to shop around since I'm on study break. Left my house early...and decided to make a phone call before I leave to Birmingham. The phone call lasted 45 mins...so, i decided not to go.

It was such a cold day today, and the wind was terrible. Spent 45 mins standing at the payphone talking...while the wind blew and my hands were terribly icy cold. Worse, it wasnt a good conversation and until now, I'm still down by it.

Something's missing in me, something's lost. Nobody seems to understand what I'm feeling, and sometimes, trying to explain to someone dosent help either, coz it just leads to misunderstandings. Maybe I dont understand myself to explain...

I'm pretty fed up of Coventry life. Work and uni isnt something to look forward to at all. And maybe the only thing I look forward to everyday when I wake up is going home to Malaysia. But...its another 4 months, so I cant really be too excited about it. And...what if I get dissapointed when things dont go how i want it to go when i go home...?

I'm just so negative right now...