Warwick Malaysia Night...worth it?

I'm feeling quite terrible now to be honest.

Malaysia Night...something I quite looked forward to. Paid 8.50 for the ticket...which was quite a big deal to me. Malaysia...I miss home so much. I'm deprived of my own culture. So yea, why not attend some Malaysian function.

Performance wise...it was alright, except for the play. Dances, singing and Dikir Barat was great.

Company wise...it was not great. Given another chance, I wouldnt have gone. I knew practically NOBODY and was totally lost in the hundreds of people crowd. After the show, everybody was having so much fun taking photographs and all...and I was just lost.

Being in Cov Uni makes me feel really left out. With the less than 0.1% population of Malaysians in Cov uni, its impossible to form a Malaysian Student Association. And so I have to go to Wariwick...but ppl at Warwick has their own clique and so what is the point of me going???

Get to know them? It intimidates me that I'm in Cov uni. I feel belittled, I feel small. I feel stupid being a Cov Uni student. No matter how many times I manage to comfort myself that choosing Cov Uni was the right decision, I still regret and feel bitter about being put in Cov Uni. Really, it wasnt much decision that I could have made...there wasnt much choice. I'm not stupid! I deserve a better uni than freaking Coventry University!!

Everytime people ask me what uni I'm in, I'm so ashamed to say Coventry. Worse if I'm talking to someone from Imperial, LSE or even Warwick. I want to tell people, but whats the point? It'll look like I'm a boast. But right now, I just want to say it...
I GOT ACCEPTED BY WARWICK!!! I just didnt have the funds. I'm not stupid...

My heart is crying...I'm crying...

Transfer next year?? I dont think I can, and where am I gonna get the funds even if i do?