Who I am, is not who you want me to be...

I've just got the urge to blog now...coz that something is so on my mind.

Someone just told me something, and honestly, I didnt take it very well. It felt like someone just used a shot-gun and shot me in the heart.

Its just like someone came up to you...and told you straight in the face "I hate you". And that someone is a person who you long to please, and make a good impression.
Or its like how your teacher compares you to your friend, and tells you straight in the face how lousy you are compared to your friend. Its just a very 'ouch' feeling.

I feel incompetent, I feel incomplete, I feel helpless.

Why am I being judged?? You dont even know me...why do you have to compare me?? Am I that bad a person? Am I not worthy??

I console myself saying, "Jesus loves me even though you don't." Therefore, I shall not feel incompetent, I shall not feel incomplete.