Through the storm

I was so much reminded about being still and knowing God is in control. Easy to say, but it is really difficult to put it in action.

The storm has been going on for so long...that really, I am so tired. Whatever efforts I put in, is just shot down and nothing good comes out of it. As hard as I try, he doesnt seem to understand and know. Nevertheless, I am not giving up yet.
I know he is in great pain...and I know how broken he is. Yet, there is nothing i can do or say to make things better. And everytime I want to turn this relationship to God, he doesnt seem to agree.

I am really believing that only God can make this relationship work out. Because nothing I did seemed to work out. It is not that I dont trust him, or dont have security in him. But I guess I'm just worried that I'll lose him some day. And i didnt want that to happen. But today, I realize that I am so wrong.

I've made him hate me. I've made him go mad.

So...what can I do? How can I change the way he is thinking now...
I dont want him to take the blame. I have a part in this. I dont want him to be the only one giving in, because I know one day...he will just explode, as he is now.

Differences I see in us,...its growing bigger and bigger. This was not the confirmation I wanted.. Is God trying to tell me something?? Or is God trying to mould us into being better for each other?

I will be still, know You are God.