Will history repeat itself?
4.45am, woke up a little and started thinking a whole lot.
6 months ago, the problem of 'waiting' arose. Much tears and arguments through the decision of 'waiting', and I guess the final decision made me happy.
Was it a rushed decision? Some say it was, but with more than 3 months to think about what to do...would that still be called rush??
I admit that I forced the decision to be made my way. And if I didnt, the decision might not have been the same...
I thought the decision will follow through and will be out of the question, but I was so wrong. 6 months time, the same decision will have to be made again.
I think it is merely because the first decision was forced...and as much as I dont want to force this decision again, I cant help feeling bitter about this whole 'waiting' situation. 4 years...and thats not enough to wait?
And the more I want to let go...the thighter I hold onto it.
I am just so stubborn...
6 months ago, the problem of 'waiting' arose. Much tears and arguments through the decision of 'waiting', and I guess the final decision made me happy.
Was it a rushed decision? Some say it was, but with more than 3 months to think about what to do...would that still be called rush??
I admit that I forced the decision to be made my way. And if I didnt, the decision might not have been the same...
I thought the decision will follow through and will be out of the question, but I was so wrong. 6 months time, the same decision will have to be made again.
I think it is merely because the first decision was forced...and as much as I dont want to force this decision again, I cant help feeling bitter about this whole 'waiting' situation. 4 years...and thats not enough to wait?
And the more I want to let go...the thighter I hold onto it.
I am just so stubborn...
lynn blogged @ 04:50
1 Comments:
At 15:32,
lynn said…
Thanks Jen,
As Sarah said in thesupercoolpeople blog, it is so hard to lay it down. Really, I was challenged by what Sarah said. The more I want to lay it down, the more I hold on to it...
But thank you so much for your encouragement. XxX
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